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baby days in schmy friend, my everything... my sweet love... although we're bad to each other sometimes, but the true concept of friends exists in us...
hmmm, muah...
talk to me, keep me sane, make me laugh, make me happy, hug me, make me feel loved by u...
sex is a gender.
sex is love.
sex is lust.
sex either complicates things or simpliflies it.
dunno, anybody any intellectual comments to add???
gonna stay celibrate, yeah...
i like making out though, not just with everyone though...
hmmmmmm...
so tired, just got home from a mos party, didnt really like it...
the whole concept is SO WRONG!!!!!
underage kids shldnt be introduced to parties, drinking, puke and smoke...
s'pore gov is fucking stupid, so being a regular clubber makes u hip and cool? i dun think so.
i just look at the kids, and it reminds me of zouk pple, all poseurs, yeah, every single one of us, though some more so.
disgusting, i mean it was alright, some parts were pretty alright, fun too, i guess.
but i just didnt like the concept. kids are so easily influenced, yeah i know, older pple wld laugh at me for calling younger pple kids, cos i'm a kid too,to them, but yeah, i wanna grow up too, it's time now, and yeah, i've really have grown up, i want real things, to care and really truely love. as in i really do treasure them now... some adults still dun get it...
yeah, tmr clubbing too, feel like skipping it though. dunno see how first... feel like dvds, and a quiet night...
have a gut feeling, tt i'm gonna lose out in some stuff tmr, dunno, play with fire again???
hmmmm... ... i'm not talking abt guys anyway.. ok???
gonna be a banker... yeah.. totally love the whole coporate feel.. esplly after work, just plain relaxing.
dunno, i love millenia walk as well, it's like near town and yet so chilled. hmm, maybe cos i'm not involved in the industry, yet!!!... and yeah, everyhting pretty much doesnt bother me there. i liek oscars for the fruit juice, yeah, awesome, juice rocks...
was out the whole day, late for some appt, everyone was like waiting FOR ME!!!! so totally awkward, evryoen staring at me when i walked into the conference room... ah well. dunwanna get cheated anymore, PLS!!!! even if u wanna cheat me, tell me, i might just take u up...
I HATE PPLE CHEATING ME...
u have no idea how emotional ur getting me. miss yeo xiao jie
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im feeling quite upset today, i duno why. like just very upset, at nothing in particular.
why..
i think listening to plain white t's makes me upset and sad. sigh.
i bloody hope this is not a sign of depression.. n my throat hurts as well. bummer.
i wana go shopping.. soon.. i really need to do something, spend some money, coming soon. if not i duno what to do with myself. o fuck. its starting again..
im sitting here all by myself
just trying to think of something to do
im trying to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you.
but you know its not working out
cuz youre all thats on my mind
one thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind.
well i didnt mean for this to go as far as it did
and i didnt mean to get so close and share what we did
and you didnt mean to fall in love, but you did
and i didnt mean to love you back but i did.
im sitting here tryin to convince myself
that youre not the one for me
but the more i think, the less i believe it
and the more i want you here with me
you know the holidays are coming up
i dont want to spend them alone
memories of christmas time with you
will just kill me if im on my own
but i didnt mean for this to go as far as it did
and i didnt mean to get so close and share what we did
and you didnt mean to fall in love but you did
and i didnt mean to love you back
we know its not the smartest thing to do
we just cant seem to get it right
but what i wouldnt give to have one more night
and i didnt mean to meet you then
when we were just kids
and i didnt mean to give you chills
the way that i kiss
and i didnt mean to fall in love but i did
and you didnt mean to love me back but you know you did
i shouldnt say i didnt love you back cuz i know i did
no you didnt mean to love me back
but you did.
(im not talking about anyone too btw.)
and do you know that the mad happy crazy people are truly sad inside, i duno about whether its true for the opposite, but the people who seem happy on the outside are really the sad ones.
i duno, just my opinion.
u know, things have changed btn me and you, i'm sorry i'm not perfect. i'm sorry u're not perfect, i'm sorry tt everything's not perfect now, we thought they were. i'm sorry things took a turn for smtg not exactly bad,but it makes me feel sad. yeah...
will alws love u, so much, as a person, as a friend, as my angel...
yeah, and yeah, i guess there'll be alot of pple who think i'm refering to them, but yeah, i'm just refering to one, he knows it, i know it, fine enough, dunid to come msg w things are fine... secret kept safe in my heart. i do blog abt my personal life, cos yeah, it's a blog, everything here comes from my heart. has become a habit to just blog whatever i'm thinking or feeling. i wld like just jump out of bed just to blog. yeah, hence all the early timings.
bye everyone, ann doesnt love everyone as much as before, feeling jaded, only those who deserve it.
cant sleep, again...
decisions, why the hell does life have to be ruled by decisions.
life's abt making the right investments too, u make a bad choice, u fail, suck it up, deal with it.
guys mind fuck u, so tt they can fuck u. yeah, ok.. heard it from the player himself,
"Ann, pls be more discerning." u have no idea how many times i heard this.
well, kick, kick, kick, all the arseholes out of my life, pple who are not gd for me and to me.
no more, i'm so nice to them, dun think they'll be evil to me, yeah,i can fucking dream on.
recently, my postings have been rant rant rant rant rant, so tired. i need happy posts...
well, birthday's coming soon, i want a quiet birthday, with dinners, lunches, brunches, even suppers will do, with my babies who love me. no partying, blah blah, spent last birthday sobbing like a mad cow, haha, i'm such an idiot who enjoys wallowing myself in self pity over stupid things tt are not my prob, yeah... my 18th was fun, spent with cheryl, my bestie. muah, yeah, fun just the two of us...
going hong kong like in july i think, yeah. with hansen, cheryl and grace... yeah, awesome, shopping man... i wanna buy heels, heels, heels, boots, yeah, heard they have some pretty cool shoes over there in hong kong, and apparently dirt cheap.. hmmm...
u know bumming? might not be such a gd idea, u feel idle, u eat and eat and eat and just slack ur life away, not accomplishing anything, just spending ur parent's money...hmmm, mummy and daddy not giving enough, i'm liek flat broke, AGAIN!! yeah, but can dig arnd here and there to survive lah.
i wanna be independent, yes i do, dunwan to reply on the affections of my parents and my kind kind kind friends, they're the only ones who get me by, get me strong and up again.
Out the door just in time
Head down the 405
Gotta meet the new boss by eight am
The phone rings in the car
The wife is working hard
She's running late tonight again
Well, I know what I've been told
You've got to work to feed the soul
But I can't do this all on my own
No, I know
I'm no Superman
I'm no Superman
And you've got your love online
And you think you're doing fine
But you're just pluged into the wall
And that deck of Tarrot cards
Won't get you very far
There ain't no hand to break your fall
Well, I know what I've been told
You've got to know just when to fold
But I can't do this all on my own
No, I know
I'm no Superman
I'm no Superman
(that's right)
You've crossed the finish line
Won the race but lost your mind
Was it worth it, after all
I need you here with me
Cause love is all we need
Just take a hold of the hand that breaks the fall
Well I know what I've been told
You've to break free to break the mold
But I can't do this all on my own
No, I can't do this all on my own
I know, that I'm no
Superman
I'm no Superman
I'm no Superman
Someday we'll be together
I'm no Superman
Someday
Someday we'll be together
Someday
I'm no Superman
sometimes i just feel like everyone wants smtg from me? want me to eb someone diff, and yeah, i guess everyone has this prob...i think i'm pmsing and thinking too damn much.
yeah, just ranting, tt's what a blog for.... I"M NOT DEPRESSED!!!!!!! I AM NOT!!!!
STOP SAYING I AM.. i just whien and complain alot alot alot.
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Goodbye people.
i'm not a depressed person, really,not an angry person too. i just love to rant on my blog...
BUT I"VE BEEN FUCKING LOSING THINGS AT A DAILY BASIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck, someblody shoot me.
i cant stand guys who are damn pussy...
1)lies all the time
2)act fucking cool, for no reason?? "yeah, i'm a model, blah blah blah, some world famous photographer wanted to shoot my portfolio for free, blah blah, i slept with this, i slept with tt" yeah, u're fucking 1.55 cm ,like who gives a shit.
3)run away from probs
4)no sense of integrity
5)ungentlemanly, dude, u've a dick for a reason, damnit, not just for sexual purposes, it's a symbol of a man, act like a man
6)taking advantage of other pple's kindness, fuck u,u have parents to take advantage of, they gave birth to u, i didnt fucking give birth to u.
7)SELF CENTERED ASSHOLES!!!!
maybe i shld be self centered now too. fucking morons.
ok, tt's it, i'm not talking to guys like tt anymore. freaking pests, they ought to be shot to death, or hung.
tired, so tired, again, didnt go church, well, next wk, i swear...
met cheryl in town and we went to get our flesh imp stuff, yeah, hmmm, ok. i like seeing my pics hanging arnd the shop, haha, yeah, sorry... hmmmmm... maybe i shld have done tt ceramic doll figurine thingy for red dot concept. scary lah...
oh blah, so tired, feeling a lil jaded today too, afraid i wasnt much entertainment, lost in my own world with cheryl for a while, pretty quiet most of the time.hmmm... met cheryl and grace and jeremy and hanson for a while, then went to sakae, didnt eat much, i had like two fucking dinners, haha, damn, i'm hungry now, wanted to catch x men, not really interested in da vinci code, cos the bk was not too bad, and i heard the bk's better, so yeah... no interest in watching the movie, and besides, tom hanks??? not sexy, yeah, he's smart and a really good actor as well, but he doesnt quite fit the sexy matured english guy look.yeah, so. hmm, oh well. edward norton is a fantabulous actor, one of my fav actors of all time, anyone watched the movie abt the pastor and choir boy? yeah, cool show. forgot what it is called, gotta watch it again.
went down to dempsey, damn they close at like 11 on sunday nights, and the girls and hanson were screeching. haha... idiots. decided to drink abit more, at the balcony after finishing the bottle of wine. then grace's friend popped down, nice dude sent us home to the east, when he actually stays in the central area.
i like my new black top, simple one, yeah, i'm wearing it now, haha.
sneaker pimps are so sexy, yeah..
i like sexy, reminds me of mua haha, yeah.. :) haha..
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mine mine MINEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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well, the past two days were like the worst i ever had. but i'm glad everything's ok now, there's really evil people anrd,who try to fuck up your mind, leave u stranded, just so tt u wld depend on them for "sanity", and they wld have u locked up in their fingers. and they are the ones who are fucked up. it's just evil. i nearly went mad, wasnt even mad in the first place and yeah, nearly did. hate him so much... love cheryl, love marcus, love my sister and nicole for talking to me, and making me clear minded. love u babies. hmmmm, well, gotta take better care of myself, and stop trusting complete strangers. ah well. disgusting. i feel violated. yeah, dun trust pple, especially media pple, they're nuts, perverted, selfish disgusting pple.
hadnt had much sleep for the past 3 nights, well, gotta crash out, so maybe no clubbing for a while. been losing tonnes of stuff recently, gotta take care of my things as well. hmmm, yeah.
it's just sick when someone twists like good stuff tt u appreciate into smtg perverted, it's disgusting. have faith in God, in yourself. going to church tmr with grace, cheryl and sam, i'm backsliding. thought nightly prayers were gd enough, but i guess not, my faith is not strong enough.
went for nicol's party, but wasnt really in the mood to party, just sat there and drank a lil, talked a lil. went over to arab's to have supper. yeah... went back to the hotel to sleep, cldnt sleep for a while. then just kinda passed out. too lazy to go down to adelphi, yeah, so i skipped it. hmmm, oh well. just another of one of those things. took a cab back with the guys and nicole, yeah, i wa sthe last one to get off, and yeah, the cab driver, totally perverted, he thought i was sleeping and adjusted his fucking mirror downwards. sick fuckers u know. well, since everything got so bad, it can only get better now. :)
well, at least i learnt smtg from this. yup.
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youth park, cali starbucks, butter factory, dbl o, spize.
DBL O FUCKING PLAYED SIENTELO!!!!
oh man, i cant believe it! :) so happy when i heard it!! its like my new fav song, i cant believe im fucking addicted to tt song.
hahahaa.
they played tt stupid MIRAME song too. dohhh. mat haven. but it sounded pretty ok in the club, weird how its quite annoying when i hear it normally.
oh, reminds me of tt time i was getting off the train, then jeremy started screaming mirame! mirame! damn loudly in the train by himself n started waving bye! bye! .............. right. i was how paiseh. but so funny.
i love reggae yay!!!!!!!!!!
REGGAE!! like daddy yankee reggae, sean paul reggae, everythingy reggae. whooop!
OH OH! OH OH!
wahlaoz, i fucking minah can.
canot stand it.
im damn full, hate chicken bryani. for now that is.
ah im goin off to drink iced water, so thirsty.....
fuck, im goin to die from clubbing, even though i dont really like it all tt much, im serious. i know many ppl dont believe me when i say this, but its TRUE. seriously.
yesterday went to mos with hansen n his friends cuz hes back, then today butter dbl o with shanon n gracie, tmr gona be zouk, sat butter factory again. bahhhhhh. didnt even really want to club today, last min decision made by ms gracie, so i shldnt drink tmr. yep, tts good n healthy. no drinking tmr, just plain ol dancing. oh i saw andrew chou at boon tong kee. hahahaha.
n i saw ANNABELLE DAHLING at spize!! hahahaha. i saw grace;s shocked face, then she started laughing, then ann came over n she started screaming, then me n grace started screaming, then the whole place started screaming. hahaha. tmr lunch yes dahling. muahz.
ok. drink water.
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just thought of smtg,
WORST case scenario:
i pass everything except for pbf, which is a prerequisite for corporate finance. which is what i wanna DO!!!!! omg, i had like 9 days to study for it and attain a distinction for it, yup, due to my lack of discipline, half a night.. oh god... i so suck, fuck, i'll hate myself if the worst case scenario happens. i rather fail all. maybe i shldnt go for my exam, but my mum wld be pissed and disappointed. and it was supposed to be my fav module, wunt be surprised if i cry after coming out from the exam hall.
the prob with myself, i try to pls everyone, including myself, thus giving half fucked attempts, screwing everything up. oh god, oh god, pls let me pass my pbf, i'm gonna study 5 chaps, let tt be sufficient enough... oh fuck, ok, the next 11 hrs are gonna be so screwed. shite. omg, i fuckimg regret, shld have went to sajc, done my science properly, gone in the science industry. who am i kidding, i am a science student, instead, i'm wasting my time, doing an arts degree.
i'm upset with myself. i really dont have a 3rd choice now, i'm abt done with my 2nd. finished. my career is finished before it even started. all thanks to my half fuck attempts in life.
just thought of smtg,
WORST case scenario:
i pass everything except for pbf, which is a prerequisite for corporate finance. which is what i wanna DO!!!!! omg, i had like 9 days to study for it and attain a distinction for it, yup, due to my lack of discipline, half a night.. oh god... i so suck, fuck, i'll hate myself if the worst case scenario happens. i rather fail all. maybe i shldnt go for my exam, but my mum wld be pissed and disappointed. and it was supposed to be my fav module, wunt be surprised if i cry after coming out from the exam hall.
the prob with myself, i try to pls everyone, including myself, thus giving half fucked attempts, screwing everything up. oh god, oh god, pls let me pass my pbf, i'm gonna study 5 chaps, let tt be sufficient enough... oh fuck, ok, the next 11 hrs are gonna be so screwed. shite. omg, i fuckimg regret, shld have went to sajc, done my science properly, gone in the science industry. who am i kidding, i am a science student, instead, i'm wasting my time, doing an arts degree.
i'm upset with myself. i really dont have a 3rd choice now, i'm abt done with my 2nd. finished. my career is finished before it even started. all thanks to my half fuck attempts in life.
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hullo, i like green.
bleah no i dont.
hahahahahahahahahahahaha.
all right, i was supposed to go sentosa, like super super early.. 12pm!!! gahh so early loh, the sun will still be up, n i duwan to be tan. hiakz.
anywayyyy.
so my sister was playin southpark super loudly, n i laughed in my sleep n woke up.
maybe it was a dream, i duno.
then jeremy called me, then ann called me, then everyone started calling me. they must be psychic, they know im up early today, cuz usually im only awake frm 4pm onwards.
right.
HONGKONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love cartman. hes fucking funny.
haha, i was laughing my ass out, sorry, wanted to pretend to lick marcky's ears....
hmmm, pic looked hotter in the cam though, oh bleah...
oh god, i need a massage so badly............. body's aching, been running up and down s'pore the whole day, accomplished nothing, sigh.
ended of the day with mr nice guy, cj, sigh, nice guys like him are all taken up, i swear i wld marry him, if we were in love or smtg, such a nice guy. he was being so so so nice. got kinda lost on the way to marcus' place and my place, oh well, at least we had a nice chat.
no energy, was feeling tired and jaded a while earlier, and now i'm just tired. sigh... sigh...
i gotta get my ass off, and start doing smtg useful. and stop being such a stupid naive lil brat, things dun alws work out the way u want. where's the love? where's the trust? with ur friends. yup...
and it's happening again... waiting and waiting, but a totally diff concept this time. yeah, still i dun really like it. dun like waiting. major dislike.
i'm starting to feel so sorry for myself, running my ass off all over the place, it's so tiring, and yeah, just fake. oh no, i'm wallowing, blah... well, two more days and i'll just have one less thing to bother abt, my exams, yeah...
maybe i'm just plain stupid and stubborn like what cheryl say, i refuse to believe. i rather take my chances. just dunwanna get burnt, and hmmm, i realised through cj today, once again, s'pore's a small place, kinda TOO SMALL!!!! aint it? argh...
great song, love this song...
Try as he might he's unable to speak
He grabs her by the hair, he strokes her on the cheek
The bed is unmade like everything is
Dark little heaven at the top of the stairs
Take me like that, ruin it all
Then build it again by the light in the hall
He drops to his knees says please my love, please
I'll kill who you hate, take off that dress, you won't freeze
One more night, that was a good one
One more night, i dreamed it was a good one
One more, one more night, that was a good one
One more night, the end should be a good one
A good one
He starts with her back cause that's what he sees
When she's breaking his heart she still fucks like a tease
Release to the sky, look him straight in the eye
And tell him that now, that you wish he would die
You'll never touch him again so get what you can
Leaving him empty just because he's a man
So good when it ends, they'll never be friends
One more night, that's all they can spend
One more night, that was a good one
One more night, i dreamed it was a good one
One more, one more night, that was a good one
One more night, the end should be a good one
A good one
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guess guess guess where i am!
im at my lover's place.
she is sleeping. i will think of devious methods to wake her up.
too bad grace isnt here!
or ann too!
her desk is a mess
her room is so dark
but i love her the best
even tho she looks quite stark
LOLOL!
she flipped over and i flipped out. tsk. im having some sorta cheap thrill just cos she's being this lousy host who is sleeping like a spongebob.
she;s moving again! hahaha okay i shld try to take unglam peektures of her so that i can blackmail her in a turn of events not to my favour. thanks dorcas for teaching me that!
teeheehee i go find camarah!
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omfg im becoming obese...
FUCKING SICK SHIT. i hate vodka, i had two bottles of diff vodka dumped in, too lazy to upload other pics, just stole them from sam's collage..........
i want my porno pic with marcus... where is sam??
i just told chinwai to go eat puffer fish, cuz its good for him. whahahahahahhaa. he being super dumb, might actually go n order it tmr, but me being so nice, shall tell him the truth about puffer fish!! killer puffer fish. hahaha. oh oh, he better not throw away the cigs he bought me.
watched the da vinci code, just told tingie hoping she wont scold me hahahaha. cuz im supposed to watch with her. oh well, can watch again i guess, although it wasnt super good or anything.
not too bad a show, although they kinda squeezed more or less everything which happened in the book into a span of what, 2 n a half hrs? wasnt very good there, but like some say, a good book might not necessarily be a good film.
right.
silas was pretty freaky though, heh. think super white skin piercing grey (?) eyes n torturing himself to suffer like jesus did. hmm. but i felt that he was damn poor thing, at the end, when he died. sorry did i spoil anything? hah, if u read the book i wouldnt, cuz its more or less the same. i think :)
feeling quite tired, and im havin cramps.. ugh. super uncomfortable.. hope it doesnt last. cuz it gets me upset n cranky sometimes. nah dont feel like going out today.
bleah.
shld be going to watch some soccer match tmr. i got soft spot for jeremy, cant say no to him, somemore he got the tickets alr, i feel bad if i dont go. bah. but im goin to support albirex n not his team. bwhahahahahhaha. so funny. i go join the albirex cheerleaders n pick up some handsome jap boys.
bah. save me from my boredom and cramps.
i need icecream............
i go buy ben&jerrys :)))))
MUACKS TO ANNABELLE. U ARE MY DAHLING FOREVER N EVER.
ILOVEU.
we need pics here..
GRACE: i look squashed in ur friendster pic, like super squashed.
went for sammy's new place to a bbq. with usual thomson khakis, and i called marcus and alex along. i just love thomson so much, nice area, my really really gd friends are there? it's just one whole big family, i got a lil upset just now, and vyasa was just there to hold me. he'll alws be my fav guy friend ever. he's a gd boy. i really really love my friends alot. the thomson pple have just been so great. and they all want the best for me, although they do make fun of me and all. i know they love me as well, no matter what. love them forever, and wenthing if u're reaading this, u gotta know i do love u lots too. pls dun get all moody and shit, i really wanna meet up with u, u know u can count on me no matter what. just know it.
russ got alil pissed cos i made him bring the mj table all the way down and i just played for a while and asked kelvin to stand in for me, and went swimming instead. haha, swimming was fun. moo is so funny, abit weird, but funny, yeah, haha, i can take weird funny. sammy love ur place, love u. haven met u for such a long time, but u're a sweet boy inside, starting to adore u too. mayeb i just have an affinity with thomson? i wished i stayed there. love marcky baby as well, cheeky lil boy made me kiss him so many times, on the cheeks haha. muah, my fav fellow eastie, gonna shift real soon, but we'll gonna meet up tonnes as well. he's my fellow porn buddy, we take the most porn pics.
ok, now, everyone be happy now and thankful for all tt u have.
pics up soon, kinda tired out... tmr!! gotta study. boys wanna bring me out swimming, cos i look sick, dudes, I SWIM AT NIGHT!!!!!! blah, oh well. maybe if i can wake up. haha.
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i think i mentioned tt i wasnt refering to particularly anyone in my previous post? i'm sorry, u're too sensitive, ok? i'm cool with everything, not bothered at all. and y the fuck do u keep telling me what i did "wrong" as if it wld make everything ok? tt's my fucking business, like u wld know anything abt it or pretend to? and get over urself, i scream at every fucking one. if i wanted to rant at u on my blog, i wld put ur name down, wld i be so sneaky? no sense man, u wanna scold someone, u do it behind their back, then what's the fucking pt, shiok arh?
hey cheryl, i bitch abt u, u bitch abt me, right infront of each other. whatever, we love each other no matter what, how many fucking time have we quarrelled and we're still best friends?
so yeah, get ur nose out of our business if u dunno what u're talking abt. this is madness.
how dare u critisise my bond with cheryl. u are mad. ARGH! hate it, when pple do tt. they cant feel the love? me and cheryl have our differences, but it's not ur prob. u dun see me bringing up ur fucking shit with ur friends. judging again... when it's none of ur business.i'm not bothered who's right or wrong? does it matter so much to u? i just dun care. we cant be friends.
pls no more interfering. no more friendster msges. we see things differently, views are diff. tt's it.
and i'm not a model... i'm a free lancer. there's a diff.
last night was daddy's birthday, so yeah he came back late, and we just had a simple dinner outside and cake at home, after tt, i had to rush off to sentosa for a poolside party at one of the villas. kelvin came down with me, and i got sam to pick nicole up, as i thought it was on the way, haha. directions, arrangements were so screwed up! it was more like a situation of dunnoe w to laugh or cry, but everything was so freaking amusing, met a few acquaintances, the world is so freaking small. the theme was porn star, yeah i didnt get the chance to wear my jap sch girl outfit. the alcohol was crazy. champagne, chardonnay, vodka, whiskey. kel and sam were nice and drove a gp of us back to jon's hse at river valley, where we drank again. i puked man, on myself, tt's disgusting!!!
urgh... had to wake up in the morning to go meet dion, cx's friend in like puked jeans and a guy's shirt, for some show thingy, oh yeah, i bet i made an impression and a stench, urgh... met vyasa and jo for brunch, and then i had to collapse. rushed home. so tired, gonna sleep now. muah muah, i love everyone.
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the naval studs in the first pic is only au10 bucks
just reached home, god i love my mum, i'm feeling tonnes better, thanks to her chinese herbal thingy with the huge ball inside, two doses, i feel great!
just caught poseidon, thought it wld be boring, we cldnt catch da vinci code, but yeah, poseidon's a diff kind of movie, there was this idiot, who kept clapping and clapping and clapping after the heroic antics, and come on this is an action movie, so can u imagine how many claps i heard?
met gavin baby in the afternoon, we went shopping, well window, didnt get anything, we were just plain laughing and having fun over the hilarious tiny incidents tt happened, the fitting room, the "shoplifting", nope, we stole nothing. i love gavin, to lil bits. muah. my gorge handsome funny lil man.
went down to raymond's hse warming, some new condo behind alley bar, ate food, glorious food. haha, was SOSOOSOSOSOSSO hungry... went off with grace and cheyrl to meet grace's cutiepie for a while. then went to meet kelvin, russ and their friend deborah, well, nice having other females besides me arnd. everywhere was closed, i fucking hit my face on kelvin's stupid car, wtf, i nv understood what's the big deal with 4 seater cars with two doors, fucken painful!! argh, black eye, right smack there, yup. finally cld only settle down at the kopitiam at holl v. then me and russ and kel went for the movie.
i'm not even tired man, been out the half day and whole night, which is pretty funny, i usually get SO tired.
isnt it funny how the dad alws dies in like action movies to let the son in law live happily ever after with the daughter and they just do it so suddenly, without warning? anyway kurt russell's like old now, yeah, he was like the second hero, after tt sexy sexy sexy hot ass guy, dunno his name, forgot. the cowboy type. anyone remembers the scene in the "escape in LA", the super duper basket thingy? ok, nobody wld know, haha, whatever, i'm just blabbering and i cant be bothered to phrase my thoughts into words.
HATE THE SEA!!! will nv go for cruises. i cant swim anyway. playing with the water, wearing bikinis, gd enough, before u go on abt how slutty i am, for liking to wear bikinis, fuck off. i'll like wearing a bikini even with girls or by my fucking self.
if u're a monk, dun fucking blame me for not being a nun. one guy in a whole fucking yr, doesnt automatically turn me into a fucking slut, judge me? who are u to judge me. maybe u're just sad, rotting ur two yrs away in camp, yep, dun get what u fucking horny dickheads want, just watch porn and wank. let's see when a hot girl throws herself at u, are u gonna keep ur "morals" and go on deluding urself,thinking u're so much better than other pple? i dun think so. anyway, tt wldnt happen too. so yeah, go on living ur life, the "moral" way. cheat guys of money? be friends with them for money? come on, i need not waste time and be friends with pple i dunwanna be friends with, and what how fucking rich can boys be? u think u're donald trump or smtg? or some whatever tt earns big bucks? sorry. seriously, get over yourselves. blah blah, i hear the annoying, blah blahs again. ok. in ns, everyone fucking one is a fucking loser, tied down to serve the stupid gov, even if u're a fucking bigshot, ur dad or grandfather is a fucking bigshot, u still have to go to "work" or what so ever u call it. yup, i'm not a guy, so yeah blah blah blah i wldnt know, fucking deal with it. nv fucking made a single comment abt u guys, probly gd ones yeah. not bad ones. fucking childish. ok, so i am a slut, then just fuck me and get away with it, noone loses. oh, i see, too bored in the office? making up stories and start believing them? u think u're better than me? i nv said i was better than u,but i certainly donot think u're better than me, just because u have more morals than me, u might be surprised abt my fucking morals too. dont judge me. i hate pple judging. u're not god, u dont know anything.
yeah whatever, i'm gonna be a pornstar tmr, judge me too?? dun u just love ranting and ranting abt stupid ns boys?? haha. go camo in the jungle. yes, vyasa u too. u can be a dickhead too, with ur fucking dota, and stop asking me for the link to loco, how freaking hard issit to remember. love u.
ps: not ranting abt anyone in particular, just letting steam over misperceptions. i feel so misunderstood, but yeah u dunno me, so ok, fine.
♥
cant really blame barca, i blame the stupid referee!!!! what the fuck is that, no moral ethics at all.
ARSENAL deserved at least a penalty shootout.
i didnt see the first goal, whether it was offside or not, but if arsene wenger n henry both say its offside, it MUST BE A DAMN OFFSIDE LA. kns.
so unfair!!!!!!!!!!!
lehmann red card somemore.
when ann told me, i was just in mark's car goin down to 7-11 to buy food, i started screaming. then mark n ben were cackling away, funny meh. i dont think so. upset.
after the match, i had soo many people calling me to GLOAT over a BIASED match. humph. it was bias i dont care.
i think ronaldinho damn stressed la yst, he looks especially more like a horse when hes concentrating, did anyone see his face during e free kick?? damn funny!!! i was trying not to laugh out too loudly. hahahaha.
all right. enough ranting about the match. chao referee. i knew he was a baddie the moment i saw him on the pitch when i turned on the tv.
byeeee. goin to raymond;s house to see babies!!!! triplets! so cute! :)))
shld leave for town now, toodles.
haha, just got home, was watching the barcelona match at seng pang with sam, marc and charlene, me and sam left early, just before barca started scoring, eh, wah lau eh....
i was so sick in the morning, i had fever. took pills and tried to sleep it off. went to meet nicole, ms fiona xie look alike. hmmm, i dunno w i shld try it out, cos i cant talk the talk, i'm the lazy kinda girl. oh well. sounds like a pretty darn gd deal though, haha, anybody interested in making fast money not through dubious means??? contact me, haha... u just gotta do abit of work.
went to town with cheryl, and we met sam, jeremy and ms gracie there. me and sam headed down to dempsey, had cheese and crackers and wine. then it was down to zouk, met the thomson gang, some of them, yup, yay... muah muah... was with them for a while at members, then left to look for the phuture pple. muah muah, sim gang, they help me. some cb violated me at phuture, chao cb, it's alws phuture, this time at least i did smtg, the previous times i alws just get so stunned, i punched the fucker on his shlder and kicked him damn hard, everyone arnd me thought i went mad, i cldnt catch him, so i caught hold of his friend behind him, then i dragged him all the way to my friends, cos i was alone going back to zouk, the boys dman fierce can, ji cheng and derek and jason, muah muah i love ji cheng and derek, alws protecting the 3 angels. too bad, we cldnt catch the cb head, then they were dman fierce to his friend, i felt bad for the guy and i told them to let him go, cheyrl was damn fierce also, she hold on to the cb;s friend damn tight. kns, tt is y i hate wed nights, u have all the sleaze bags preying on unsuspecting girls. the cb head is a damn cb, he left his friend alone to be screamed at by us. i hope his friend punch him and stop talking to him.
♥
ann went offline and cheryl just logged into msn. i dont want to talk to regina already because
>*Regina*<>*Regina*<>*Regina*<>*Regina*< says:
u everyday play what
Grace Tng: says:
damn scary ah u
cheryl's talking to a unknown darling stranger or she's either busy stuffing herself with food again because she's not at the computer. idiot. i cant find the title of the emo song. im just so bored. so disappointed. i should have studied and get my butt into some local uni right? i shld and i could. i have a confession to make, i play alot. haha. annabelle mummy how?
i havent update inmotion for like damn damn long. no inspirations. im not emotional recently.
so wont you tell me where it hurts my baby?
i will try my best to make it better
asswipe. KILLKILLKILL
isit really that psychotic to have a fetish for collarbone.
quote: " so isit just normal to be you"
alright dudes see you at the same old place tmr. zoukkkkkkkkkkkkkk
im singing now. im singing this song.
Why is that sad look in your eyes Why are you crying?
(Tell me now)2x
Tell me why you're feelin' this way
I hate to see you so down, oh baby!
Is it your heart Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
And makin' you feel blue
Is there anythin' that I can do
CHORUS:
Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make those tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away
Where are all those tears coming from
Why are they falling? somebody, somebody,
somebody left your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold on, baby (Give me a chance)
To put back all the pieces
Take hold of your heart
Make it just like new
There's so many things that
I can do chorus (Instrumental)
Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry makin' you feel blue
Is there anythin' that I can do
CHORUS: Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me baby
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me And I love you with a love so tender
Oh, and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away
so wont you tell me where it hurts my baby
i will try my best to make it better
ahaha the lyrics running in my mind. doesnt make sense tho. to an extent it does. well o well
so now. before scrolling down. can you tell from the way the entry goes, who the blogger ? whos isit?
tada im inmotion. yeah its me, the one with the worse command of english. aye but im a humanities person i can bullshit alot. so when it comes to exams im better at language than at figures. i hate formulas man. it doesnt just work out the way it is suppose to be just because u spend the whole night memorising formulars. formulars are the biggest bullshit. you need practice. but trust me even with practice u cant guarantee that you can derive the solution. my dad said that i should attempt all the questions in the maths and stats paper, but you know this is maths and stats. its not humanities u cant crap your way tru.this is facts and expected steps to answers. if you dont know how to do it. dont attempt it cause it just wasting of time. fuck those figures.
i love ibm. im gonna study for ibm muah muah ann and marcus and all reading this post pls study hard for your last paper and all the best!
annabelle's tired, cranky and sick.
i got flu from exam halls, and sore throat from durian puffs, i love durians, i'm still stuffing my face with puffs... i'm the durian queen, hoho.
sorry cheyrl, for overreacting this afternoon. haha, ridiculous. i was so tired, i didnt sleep, i didnt finish the paper tt i thought i wld score, i forgot simple stuff like the mean and mode and median, HAHA, whatever man. haiz, one more paper, nine more days, my fav module, :). and it'll be self refecting time in short term goals.
booooo, better sleep early tonight. i'm gonna catch the champ league, no zouk, no clubbing, haha..
GO BARCA!!!!! muah muah muah... ARSENAL sucks. they alws screw up the big games.
here i go, scream my lungs out, to try to get to u, i let go...
i'm craving for swedish meatballs and fried chicken wings and cream of brocoli... URGH!!!!! flu bug, sucks...
not gonna club for a while now,
gonna play mah jiong,
gonna find my thomson lovelies now.
i dunwan anybody else.
for now.
ta all, annabelle loves spring leaf.
i cant change my love for beer. hohoho. why arz...
beer fest!!!!
YAY!!!
okay. my mummy asked me so sweetly today to help her do the laundry, and even though im super tired n only slept abt 2 3 hrs max in 2 days, i, being such a nice and loving daughter said yes okay. :)
but then! she ran out to meet my aunt.
...........................
righttttt. i shldnt fall for her tricks next time round. humph.
i need money..
oh. and im kinda afraid i wont live to see my 20th birthday.. the end of days is here.
6/6/06
oh God help us all.
fuck shit. im not gona go see that omen show. the trailer freaked me out enough alr. i got worse shivers from watching that short 2min trailer than the emily rose one, which was probably like 4mins or so.
fuck!! we;re all gona die!!!!
i havent even turned 21 yet!!!!
i havent even earned my first million, married my first tall rich super hot husband, got my first car (or my license, for tt matter).
i havent seen the eiffel tower, the statue of liberty, i havent watched the da vinci code!!!!
(digressing, my pastor said: "why do people believe fiction so willingly, and distrust the facts even when the truth is laid out for them?" which i think is so true but of course people will choose to spend more time thinking abt or even believe something more interesting, like fictional "truths", rather like the da vinci code, rather than the truth, which can sometimes be just a tad more boring than lies. yep, sad but true. i will think more abt tt after ive watched da vinci :))
right.
lost my train of thought.
anyway, what i wana say is, i cant die before even doing the many things i want to do! i havent even tried the mini fake bungee jump at clarke quay.. it looks so funny.
bahhh.
just came back from the airport, tried to study, but it so hard cramming everything in the matter of a few hrs, got like stats tmr morning, hmm, and i cant sleep, with figures running through my head.
derek and cj are over at my place, weird funny bunnies. cj is damn weird, i asked him to bring clothes for derek tmr, he asked me, w sleeping clothes or tmr clothes, and he brought 3 diff shirts for derek to choose from, HAHAHAH. derek also, he wanted to drive back to his place, and change and then come back to my place. ... ... ... cos he doesnt wanna wear cj's sexy sleeping clothes, HOHO...
haiz, ok, can play tmr alr, have been playing though, hiak hiak, but at least i've ample time to study for pbf, get a distinction and play. yup yup..
wed, kinda packed, movie with jake, sam's birthday and either zouk or butterfactory. blah, maybe i wunt go club, anyway i dun really like mambo.
isnt it annoying how things nv turn out the way they do in ur fantasies? or maybe just sad.
i wish all my fantasies will come true...
sigh...
i love everyone... good night...
huloooo people! hahahahaha.
aras won survivor!!! i am so happy!!! NOTE: i dont watch survivor though. heh. he how handsome hahaha. n he looks like josh duhamel from las vegas which is a plus!! hiakz.
anyway. went to flesh imp today, cuz jeremy went to collect his chain thingy n i wanted to get my stuff too, but i forgot to bring my vouchers! bahhhh. didnt really see anything though. got a few baby tees n spag tops but tts abt it. i want tt curly flmp tag chain! yup. got another tenbucks voucher from the vip pack which also had a phone strap thingy, badge n MENS shirt. why no GIRLS shirt??? its so rude to have a men's shirt but not a girl's one. pooff. nvm, can wear to slp or smth.
im bored.................
i have new songs! YAY. i like adding new songs to itunes. so happy. REGGAE!!!
tired. clementimacs fleshimp indochine bkliattowers hollandv.
meeting my girlies tmr!! :) let me slp first arz my babies.. then i go meet u guys in the evening or smth. hur.
wed mambo. maybe. yea ok most prob. ARSENAL BARCA MATCH!!!!!!!! WOOHOOOO. WHERE U ARSENAL SUPPORTERS! R U A FAN LIKE ME??? hahahhaa.
sigh. i was feelin damn hungry n i went to eat n now i end up being super superrrrrr bloated... fuck.
i want a red plain halter dress!!!
okay, maybe will look too slutty on me.
peach dress!!! ahh peach shld be better eh. :) or some other colour.
oh yea... reminds me. i havent had the chance to wear my pretty black shoes yet.. actually i think i shldnt even have bought it, its such a dressy pair of shoes.. n theyre much too tall for me. :( but i really like it.. :)
i need new bags... n new shoes... n new clothes... n new phone... n new hair colour plus haircut... n in dire dire need of a manicure... n i dont have cash fuck.
oh well.
my mummy's been bugging me to get my lazy ass out of the house to find a job, n my daddy's been bugging me to get my driver's license. bahhh. im lazy. i dun wana drive.
i need to lose weight toooo......................
:(
all right. back to clueless. (pretty bad show actually)
PS: found a nice pic. :)
pretty scary sitting up there though. hur.PPS: im super super hell bored out of my mind.. n im not tired!!! WHY!! got craving for some damn champagne now, i dont know why, i dont even like it all that much. i want some bubbly....... bubbles bubbles bubbles. bloop bloop.
♥
manross went to perth without telling me, and he only told me like 8 days after he reached, he differed and went to study, i miss my poopsie... haven met up with him, and i was alws busy, poopsie thought i didnt care abt him anymore, I DO!!! funnypie. muah muah. send u the pics of u and me, rare pics tt we take tog, when i get the burnt cd, dun dare, must put on friendster.
yup, going for a quickie, beer, tt is, haven had beer in ages, had been wine wine wine, benny, it's not cos i dunwana go with u, it's cos the pub's near my place! and i'm shifting soon, so yeah, gotta get out in the east, i love east.
tmr's econs, and i'm goign for a beer.sad, according to stupid yuey. not going for econs LAH@!!!
byebye
marcus oh marcus, i miss u!!!!!! better bring em out to the chill out eastie places. my fav neighbour ever ever ever, and i promise to go support u guys after exams for the league games,not in a bikini though!!!!! get grace to do it, i dun have the assets.
♥
had a nightmare again, fuck, what's up with all the nightmares recently?
i dreamt tt i was walking down the street and then, a man stopped and screamed at me, he told me i'm condemned, and he proceeded on to draw a black cross on my forehead, and told me i looked like a coffin, and then i had a vision of humans as god's soldiers. and my uniform was torn.
had tonnes of other lil dreams, tt were not impt.
stupid ben. why benblack?
-graceinmotion
BenBlack
hey!!! intruder alert........
my mood has been up and down the whole day. my school mate woke me up early. then it started raining. i left when it was still raining to meet him to study for awhile. met cheryl. met pham. went zouk. sucks
i was cranky over the entry before 11 for awhile. after that i got so happy i dont know why. ann was tired and cranky. cheryl was as usual, better mood than usual i guess. tired now 8 inthe morning. cant concentrate cant type properly. feel weird. met some very old frens who said that i was all along very proud and quiet till today. for people that dont start of knowing me as just a fren. they prolly doesnt know that i treat my close frens and others very differently. im usually quite reserved when my close frens aint around. why am i saying this? just some thoughts
saw my tofu boy outside zouk, haha he gave me a fren hug ahhhhhhhh he's so adorable.
so many trannies everywhere. prettier than us. oneo f them look like eh...hmmm...
im so tired, why does it seem like its always me? no matter how much i hold back?
what do you want? nothing, like what you said? is that what you really meant, then why are you contridicting youself. try not to give too much, so you wont grow tired.
damn tired, just got home from zouk, met vyasa and gang earlier, i'm so happy to have vyasa in my life, yup. love him, great spending time with him, although we do not spend alot of time tog, but we'll alws be the best of friends alws and alws.. yup yup.
went down to zouk after tt. and then demspey again, after tt, cos i wanted a quiet night. then it was back to zouk again, left earlier, and went driving arnd in circles, for a while, he's mad! was out early, since two, SO TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!! and i cld nt find my passport, i lost it, i lsot my ic too. urgh, i'm gonna be jailed, but i'm barely turnign twenty, and I"M NOT SELLING MY IDS!!!!
URGH!!! sad, i dunwana be jailed.
had a nightmare last night, blah, hate nightmares,ok, night, tired, out, sleeping!
♥
this isn't about who you were or who you've come to be.
this is about the times that has been forgotten or desperately buried
this isn't about you, me or even them
what once seems easy promises to be a back burner now
maybe it was easy till you fucked it up
or it wasn't because you wouldn't let it be
perhaps this is merely words arranged specially to confuse
*you were never special to begin with*
♥
help me!!!!
im beginning to have an addiction to the song 'sientelo'. FUCK!!!!
now im gona hear little chants in my head at night....
cant believe its by lumidee (and speedy) though, i thought her kind of song was like the ohoh ohoh type. hahaha.
oohh, and, it cant be right by 2play. really nice.. both songs kinda grow on u i guess.
oh shit i need help in getting rid of this damn addiction for sientelo. i love blasting it, i think its annoying everyone, and me.
:)))
wah fuck im damn bored at home. nothing to do lehhhhhhhh.
just got up, shld go find some food... im starving!!!!!
i think cuz like if u eat the night before, then go to slp soon after, ull wake up super hungry the next day... or is it only me?? its true right?
anyway.
ann said zouk's playing hiphop tmr, duno what phuture's playing, prob those crap electronics duno what. sighhhhhh. dont really feel like goin. i dun really like zouk now. too much of zouk recently. sickening. id much rather go some pub or drinking place just to drink now, like at least balcony or e one at alexandra road, villa bali isit? or smth rather than squeeze ard with unknown people. i think thats the part that really super pisses me off.
okay, im officially dying of boredom........................................
go watch stepford wives first before answering all my half plans today. hiakz.
bye people.
at least i make an effort to blog even though i dont know what the hell to talk about...
its the hols!!!!!!!!!!! 3 mths!!! bleah.
oh yea, reminds me of someone yst online..
"hows ur holes??"
i was like wtf man, what holes.
"how long ur holes?"
"wah good lah holes so long."
uh ok nvm.
ok, flunked math as well, mind block, thought i wld ace it. yeah, ok, whatever...
not gonna put in anymore effort insto studying, yah, i'm going out tonight, drink drink drink, hmmm, wonder w i shld go to zouk, guess i wld be going tmr. yeah, exams, whatever...
MAMBO NIGHTS AT ZOUK.
fuck all the people there lah. im in a bad mood alr. dont ever ask me to go mambo again okay, ill just throw my temper in there.
stupid.
dont make me squeeze through the damn crowd, dont make me dance with fuckibg sweaty people, dont make me drink drinks i dont like, dont make me stand on the podium, dont let me get burnt. anyone who does any of the above will seriously get the death of glares from me. I HATE IT OK.
ninabei.
n now my back hurts n my arms hurt n my feet hurts!! i want a MASSAGE!!!
BAHHH.
i was hopping here n there cuz my hp died on me tt damn screwed up excuse for a phone i have, n everyone had to follow me ard in case i got lost n got stuck without a hp. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
thanks raymond, for letting me keep changing my sim card n signing me in if not i can stand there n queue until tmr morning, thanks chevy for squeezing into fucken packed phuture before leaving, thanks chinwai for sending me home. thanks no one else. cheebyes.
shld have gone to butter factory with benny n mark. pfffffffffffffffttttttttttttttttttttttttt. benny said its damn good!!! only received the msg after i got home, of course. cheebeh.
sigh o well. no point. im kinda hungry...... shld have gone for supper first... oh well. im gona go eat now. sianazzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
cant slp somemore. getting sinus alr. been a super hectic day today, dont even know why.. hol v to serene centre to adam rd hawker to zouk n finally im back home. bleah.
bye fucktards, i hope everyone has fun at zouk n phuture squeezing with sweaty strangers n getting burnt by cigs. whoopeeee damn fun eh.
or maybe going clubbing just isnt the same without u girls... :( i need u guys around!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH BTW, good luck to all sim pple! hope u guys studied hard for ur papers, dont be liike me, heh. exams will be over soon..yepp.
I WANT TO PUKE ALR LAH...
got all the basics covered, pretty well too, bluck, but dunno w i can remember tmr morning....
finished the 4 chaps in record timing, kinda too fast, all within half an hr or so. damnit...
and they're the deeper chapters, with tonnes of wordds and nos..
laranger's multiplier, who the fuck came up with tt?!?!?!? sounds more like a disease...
cant remember, cldnt practise, no time, just read through everything...
think marcus is gonna stay up all night, called me just now, he seems pretty lost.
gonna sleep, hope i can sleep, figures will probably be running through my head.
economical functions, and who the hell comes up with 3 different variables in the same eqn, and u have the solve them simulataneouly, and differentiate them simultaneosly, the differentiate the alr differentiated ones, determine the nature of the pts, and get the amount to get the max or min profit. bluck, i wld love all these, if i had more time, but cramming everything into my head, just makes me wanna PUKE!
and we're not supposed to use a calculator, damnit, spent my tie doing matrixes, relatively simple as abc, just becos my calculations were wrong, instead of doing the more impt stuff...
cramming's gonna get me lung disease, i keep smoking and smoking and smoking, reckon i finished a whole pack in 4hrs, no wonder i feel liek puking, feels liek there's tonnes of smoke in my stomach, it's disgusting, urgh... i remember once, i chained smoked ten sticks within half an hr outside a club, and then i went in to puke, withut even having to drink anything, black stuff came pouring out, yucks... i was angry at tt time i remember.. hmmm, alws angry, alws irritated, damnit, i gotta control me emotions, ok, enought ranting, feel kinda better, I BETTER DO WELL tmr!!! and not screw up like my poa, at least i have a pen now...
nightz, annabelle out...
♥
okay, i LOST 4 fucking chapters of my math notes, and my exam is tmr, morning... GREAT!!!!!!
i wanted a distinction for my math and stats, the only tt i can most likely get...
YEAH, ok, 1/3 of my whole entire unit, GONE!!!!! fuck man, shld have at least went to sch to collect the freaking notes.
trying to finish a untouched unit in one whole day, well, i've been through like half alr. DAMNIT LAH, and the chapters i lost, were all the economical math stuff, which was not taught in sec and jc.. FUCK LAH!!!!
DAMN FUCKING ANGRY!!!!!!!!
nabei, better check whether my stats notes are complete anot...
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:)
;)
hmm, gd luck to all the soci pple tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cant study, love doing math though, cant conc, keep walking up and down...
i wanna be a mathematician, hoho, or a math techer wld be gd...
hmm, since i love kids so much, i might as well be a kindergarden teacher, oh, but i'm gonna be so super duper suckered in by the cuties. dimples add extra pts, i love sweet kids. innocent babies.
kinda miss the time when i was a baby. haha, wldnt remember how it was like anyway.
i think when i die, i'll miss life, i dunno, i love living, i love life, i loe experiencing evrything, the joy, the sadness, the hurt, everything. although maybe sometimes there are downs, but u can be sure the ups will follow sooon after! i do enjoy the experience of the downs too, well, one cannot be too happy all the time.
oh, i'm gonna miss everyone of my sch mates this yr, i'm sure, there wld be friends for the next, but yeah. i will miss gavin for sure. my first friend in sch.
i'm happy. maybe marcus is right, when it passes, just let go and stop thinking abt it...
but i really really wanna watch the damn cartoon, it was part of my childhood. and it's a really special cartoon.
the main character?? loves get beaten up by the hench men, initially he'll be like in pain, and soon after, he wld be moaning in extasy to the digust of the hench men and wld be asking for more. funny ehz?? so hands up, for all those who wanna watch the cartoon!!!
good, find it for me, i've been googling it for hrs!!!!
Maybe I've been the problem
Maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same
I've been thinking maybe
I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast
And maybe all my luck's washed down the drain
I've been thinking 'bout everyone,
Everyone you looks so lonely
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars,
I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself
Stars looking at a planet
Watching entropy and pain
And maybe to start to wonder
How the chaos in our lives could pass as sane
I've been thinking 'bout the meaning of resistance
Of a hope beyond my own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent
Begin to look like home
I've been thinking about everyone
Everyone you looks so empty
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars,
I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself.
Yeah! Everyone, Everyone feels so lonely
Everyone, yeah everyone feels so empty
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars,
I feel like myself
When I look at the stars
The stars, I see someone...
star gazing, hmmmmmm... :)
♥
hi people, cheryl's back....
having no net connection didnt feel that long ago, but i realised from friendster that ive been netless for almost 2 weeks?? hmm.
anyway.... im free from exams!!!!!!!!! :)))
happy arz. yup, im happy. need cash now. hohoho.
either get more cash or change my lifestyle.. i dont know what the hell i spend on la seriously. my spending powers are killing me..slowly. sob.
perhaps i shld go find a job.... yea maybe. see how. need to support my 2 little babies hahaha. got 2 mouths to feed for abt 3 weeks i think. little siewmai n little youtiao.
IM GONA GET A DOGGIE!!!!!! YAY!!!
maltese. its gona be really small n teeny. ahhh damn cutee can! can bring her on walks, bring to hol v, bring her shopping, just like my own little kiddy. hoho. ill take good care of her n buy her milk n doggie biscuits. i want a cute furry one. white fur.. then can tie her hair. n put her in little black boots. whahhahaa. omg. getting super happy thinking of my doggie.
ok.
sighh. my mummy wants to take another trip to the doggy farm. best place to buy dogs eh? dont really know... anyway.
i think im starting to ramble.. exams sucked. sucked. sucked.
i cant believe my behaviour during the exam period. arghhhh god help me. the first few papers were all right, then came the one half week break, and it was like downhill from there. did seriously last min studying, like the night 2 hours before for one paper, then realised when i got there that i went for the wrong fucking paper, thought i was having lit when i was actually havin finance. kns...
"hullo! where r the lit tables??"
-uhh.. then blank look frm the invigilator-
"uh, the lit tables where the lit people are sitting...??" -ccb, why ntu ppl so dumb one-
"i think u got the wrong hall"
"... this is hall d right..." -wtf this asshole, im late alr still wan to kachiao me-
he brings another invigilator over
"pls check the module numbers over here dear"
"okay fine" -still rolling my eyes, almost popping out of my head-
"O FUCK"
"is there a problem?"
"not really.. do u have an extra calculator n pencil?" -fuckfuckfuck-
AH. genius i am. sitting for finance paper without calculator, doing manual calculations, wtf.
next day woke up super late for the right paper too. paper supposed to start at 930 i got up at 930. sighh.
wonderful. plus i left the exam hall a half hr early. BAHHHHHHHHHH.
byebye. my eyes are itchy n my head hurts.
ok, might as well just blog here instead of ansing all the qns ltr...
so tired..
luckily, exams are held at the east side, but at the expo, of all palces, nick was laughing at me. the hall is huge, so many pple take poa, and noone i hang out with was remotely near me!!!!
but after the exam, i saw gilson's gf right behind me, and tt guy from kap, forgot his name, and yol and her friend terrance. met the rest outside for a smoke, finally met my darling gavin. he cut his hair, but i prefer him in his longer hair...
well, i read through the whole unit, within 4 days, thought i knew teh basic concepts, but yeah, i screwed up real bad, there were 9 qns to be completed, i cld only complete one, hopefully, i'll get full marks for tt one!!! and left the rest liek half done, my p and l had like half a mil loss, i forgot everything, my balance sheet was weird as well. i forgot which are expenses and liabilities, got everything mixed up and thus i just minused everything!!! yeah... oh well.... actually the paper was quite doable, if i had remembered everything, but yeah, mind block, i even forgot abt accruals and orudence... did variation like over and over again, and i was advising pple to study var, haha, i FORGOT how to do the variable overheads, and apparently u just get the standqrd hrs from the labour hrs, blah, such a dumb fuck.. lost tonnes of marks, due to forgetfulness...
only studied for poa out of my other subs..
well, gotta start on the rest now...
i've decided, i'm gonna give up on econs. cos i know i wldnt even be able to get 5 marks, yeah, all the econs geniuses, shut up, i'm not u... sigh... wish i was though. I HATE ECONS....
well, even though i'm quite the math genius in the past, i dunno w one day can help me brush up everything, this sucks...
i'm gonna just go for my math and stats paper, and try my best, and then i'll have a 9 day break, when i can slowly study for my pbf!!
so yeah, it's either i retake two modules by themselves next yr, or i i'll have to take like 6 modules next yr!! which wld be a killer, cos i plan to take corporate finance, pyschology and other two subs... hmm, dunno. and besides, econs and poa are killer subs by themselves alr.
sigh, intially i wanted and blog and rant abt my exams, but i guess i just have to grow up and deal with my laqck of discipline with maturity... nobody's fault but mine... went th wrong way down ever since i stepped into cj, yeah, it had benn fun ever since then, dipping right into the temption of fun and forsaking my studies. i'm gonna work and play really hard after my exams. yeah, and not so much lazing arnd and stoning at my balcony.. well, no more4 balcony anymore, after i shift.... hmmmmm, gonna miss my balcony...
well, gonna rest and sleep for a while, and wake up and study...
well, with econs totally out of my view, it's really impossible for me to pass anyway, so might as well concentrate on my math and stats..
muah, evryone, so this is my ans to how my exams are getting on... bah, maybe i shld give my parents this blog ad. i just feel bad... have alws let my parents down cos of my studies, over and over again, i promise this will be the last time!!! and yes, i know i've said this plenty of times before...
♥
i'm wrapped around your lil finger... muah
baby, baby, baby cutiepie of mine.
a flash of ur dimples makes me melt and coo.
u can have ANY toy in the world u want.
i'll try my best to get the stars for u,
just to see u smile, and wink at me.
haha, note: i'm am not a paedophile, i just love cute baby boys.
annoying, annoying, annoying, fucken annoying.
♥
alo people, hi everyone, since cheryl's connection is down im here to help ann keep loco alive, with my very boring irrelevant posts. haha i'm going to meet ann now, at siglap to study. yea we're studying!!!!!!!!!
right . i dont know how to blog here. everything i type just seems weird. right. im off to studying muah
cheryl, PUNCH U
wenting, XOXO
♥
abit high now, went down to dempsey hill, instead of zouk, cos of my ugly outfit, i knew grace wld try to drag me down somewhere to club, the girls went to mos.
studied two simple poa chapters at delfi orchard. then felt like drinking suddly, everyone one was playing lan or going to zouk, didnt feel like going clubbing, too noisy.
i like dempsey, so out of the way, but so convinient. when we were abt to leave,i realised i didnt bring my keys, urgh, had to wake my dad up to open the gates. luckily he woke up. gona go siplap early tmr, to study, exams coming, so SOON!!!!!! first paper in 3 more days. then i've like 4 papers crammed in the same wk, then 9 days of free time and one last paper. it's all gonna be over in 19 days time, so yeah, i can stop feeling guilty while playing at the same time.
urgh, just remembered the mj khakis are playng mj tonight, shld have played mj, instead of waking my dad up. oh well. gonna finish up tt half bottle tonight. muah...
grace and cheryl suck, didnt reply my msg. have fun at mos, haha....
♥
tired... again...
arms hurt...
had fun with cai xia today... fun to be arnd her.
met cherl for lunch and movie, mission imp 3. not bad, action packed....
i wanna go shopping.
and i dun like my new pumps anymore. blah.. they hurt my feet. dunwan to wear anymore, and i didnt realise how much they look like the far east kind of shoes. oh blah, blame it on me, i want to have anything i want immediately, without realising tt i actually dunwan it at all. oh well...
i want to buy my white dresses now, one dollie one, and one elegant one, YAY, muahz...
so tired, gonna watch a lil tv and sleep, gd night my loves...
vyasa misses me, hiak hiak...
♥
La La La La La La
Maybe, it's me, maybe i bore u
No no, it's my fault, cos i can't afford u
Maybe baby, puffy, jay z would all be better for u
Cos all i can do is luv u
Baby when i used to luv u
Theres' nothing that i wouldn't do
I went thru the fire for you, do anything you asked me to
But i tired of livin this lie
It's getting harder to justify
Realised that i just don't luv u
Not like i used toLa la lala la la
Maybe, i should rob somebody
So we could, live like whitney and bobby
It's probably my fault, my bad, my loss
But u are, above cost
Cos all i could do was luv u
Baby when i used to luv u, theres' nothing that i wouldn't do
I went thru the fire for you, do anything you asked me to
But i'm tired of living this lie
It's getting harder to justify
Realised that i just don't luv u
Not like i used to
Hola hola holaHola hola hola
Do you remember when i used to luv u
Baby no not any more, luv u
Ooohhhh, I luv u
And you're gonna miss me now
Baby when i used to luv u
There's nothing that i wouldn't do,
I went thru the fire for u, and i'm not gonna play the fool
No i can't live this life, and i can't justify, and i can't make up my life
Cos i don't luv u
Not like i used to do
Hola hola holaHola hola hola
Oh i used to luv u
Oh i used to luv u
Oh but I don't luv u
Oh but I don't luv u
Oh but you're gonna miss me now
Baby when i used to luv u, theres' nothing that i wouldn't do
I went thru the fire for you, do anything you asked me to
But i'm tired of living this lie
It's getting harder to justify
Realised that i just don't luv u
Not like i used to
la la la la la la
Oh i used to luv u
Oh i used to luv u
Oh but I don't luv u
Oh but I don't luv u
Oh but you're gonna miss me now
Oh but I don't luv uuuuuuuuuuu
circumstances change, circumstances make feelings change... evrything is changing so fast.
so tired, blah, outfit for tmr, is like so lap sap. i mean how the fuck wld i know what goes with a laptop. the skirt's cute, i mean for like a normal dinner or outing tt kind, but it so doesnt go with the bloody laptop. not sure how to showcase the damn laptop, and everything's so last min, they all think me and cx are like damn pro, but infact we know no shit. yeah, ok whatever, just hope i dun trip and fall... annoying fuckheads. argh... and my hair!!!!!!! no time to do it in the mornign as well. i'm gonna end up looking like an office lady. sucks to them, their bloody company anyway, nothing to do with me. urgh, tired, cant study. dad asked me abt uk again, i dunno, i dun like making plans. then again, i hate things to be last min rush, urgh...
just like me studies.
ok, ta, pple. the gov bodies sucks, like whatever.
♥
i miss annie and cheryl.
and grace i wanna catch you in a no-alcohol day!
sometimes i feel extra here. like your friends will be reading this and asing who the hell is this person blogging?!
studying is so horrid, when u're tired and have so much on ur mind...
urgh, tried to study just now, blah, maybe i'll have an early night today, parents and baby bro came home, muah.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BARRY LING!!!!!!
u're alws be my fav person in the world. muackz.
♥
i met my son today, his name is darius, he's five yrs old, and he adores me as well, cheeky lil punk kept flirting with me, he winked, he waved, he smiled, he laughed, he caught my heart!!!!!
muah...
haha, i love him...
oh god, cheecky lil boys will be my undoing, i was losing my temper until i met him, haha, after tt, all was good!!!!!!! i took pics with him!!!!! he has one of me as well, his mum came over to take pics of us, wow, haha, and i thought she was glaring at me! what a nice woman, haha, lucky lucky mum. lil pampered boy, well, will post up his pic soon.
bah, dun think i'll be able to study tonight as well, the boys and charlene are coming over for another round of dvd. was thinking abt zouk, but i felt so dirty from being out the whole day, and i wanst wearing heels, nv ever go clubbing with annabelle without her heels, she'll sulk...
ok, i'm happy, gonna have sweet dreams abt my baby boy... haha. i'm not a paedophile, i just love kids, esplly cutiepies. at the age from 3 to 6.. SO CUTE!!!!
